A place where I post unscripted, unedited, soulless rants of a insomniac madman
I suppose everyone would love to say yes to the prompt question, and that would be correct, generally speaking. We have had a lifetime of experiences to teach about the content of one’s character—a lifetime of trial and error, a lifetime of being hoodwinked. Hoodwinked was the title of my response to this question a year ago. That post can be found here.
I think we want to take people at their word. For centuries, we have judged people based on so many different aspects that it would make your head spin. We’ve judged people by race, creed, religion, and sexual orientation. We never even bothered to find out what kind of person they were at the core. We have relied on stereotypes and preconceptions taught to us by society. Societal standards aren’t altogether false; we all have certain beliefs based on these standards. However, we have to be strong enough to stand up against the things that have proven false.
Let me take a moment and list a few things I have heard over the years. These examples should provide a clearer picture of the point I’m trying to illustrate.
I’ve heard this nonsense in the last year, and it’s hard to believe that some of it is still being said. I won’t even touch some things I see on social media. The hardest pill to swallow is when the mess comes out of the mouth of someone you thought you knew. Events like these make you question your judgment. We sometimes change our opinion of someone based on a single action or statement. However, I suggest not reacting in haste because everyone has a bad day. Also, we have no idea of their struggles and haven’t shared.
Dr. Maya Angelou offers this advice.
I’ve found this quote to be quite helpful over the years. I’ve tried to minimize placing my expectations or principles on individuals and allowed them to be themselves. In some cases, you will be surprised by someone’s actions. I’ve been in situations where the least likely person came to my aid. You just never know. The only I can hope for is not to be hoodwinked.
As a writer of a certain age, I spend time thinking about the past for several reasons. Sometimes, things that happened in the past make interesting ideas that may form a basis for a story. Other times they may lend an expected scene. Typically, I use the past in the following areas in regards to writing.
Utilizing the memories of past experiences has crucial in some of my successes as a writer. I have to keep in mind, I must let the story tell itself. I know that may sound strange, but experience has taught to never force anything.
As a man, I often refer back to situations, to see if I still them the same as I did initially. On several occasions, I found some insight hidden in the corners of my psyche. It had been there the entire time. It was just waiting for me to understand what I looking at and why.
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
This isn’t a hard question for me. I would love to live somewhere in the woods. As long as I had wifi. The first places that come to mind are Montana & Wyoming. I spent time in both of these places and I loved it.
List 30 things that make you happy.
I read this question and begin to laugh. I can’t remember the last time I needed 30 things to make me happy. I’ve overheard conservation dealing with this subject, where the overall opinion if you couldn’t name a certain ridiculous number things you weren’t a happy person.
As I walked away, feeling joy for dodging a bullet. Being assimilated into the Borg, has been a goal of mine. Yet, I knew I couldn’t name the required amount of things. What did this say about me? Am I not a happy person?
Okay, I admit I’m a bit of a frowner, but come on! A sad sack?
So I came up with a list for various topics I’ve heard people talking about.
Yes, I know those list are ridiculous, however there was a time in my life where I considered these might important to know at some point. Yet, I find them no more than zany than needing 30 items that make you happy. I concede it appears to avoiding the question for some reason. I’m not I assure you.
Now, I’m aware that 28lbs paper officially makes me bougie. Whatever.
I live a simple, a few frills life. Or at least these are things the things I tell myself as attempt justifying to myself the expensive of a new piece of tech.
Harold Shea is an ordinary fellow, as fellows go. He has no grand stories about this girl or that girl. He is a simple chap who eats tuna on toasted rye. Harold and I are clerks at the Ministry of Useless Facts and Random Memories. A person becomes a clerk if they have a knack for remembering and cataloging trivial information. Our job is to sift through old documents and archives, searching for forgotten tidbits of knowledge that may one day prove useful.
Harold is a diligent worker, and he takes pride in his work. He always arrives early and stays late, poring over old manuscripts and dusty tomes. He has a particular fondness for historical trivia and, from time to time, found regaling his coworker Venus Milo with tales of obscure battles and forgotten rulers.
Despite his unremarkable nature and unassuming demeanor, Harold is a valuable member of our team. Without his tireless efforts, many of the useless facts and random memories that we collect would be lost to the sands of time.
Harold is also a kind and thoughtful person. He is always willing to lend a helping hand to his coworkers. Last week, for instance, one of our colleagues was struggling to find a particular piece of information for a project. Harold spent hours searching through old records until he found what she was looking for. He did all of this without expecting anything in return.
Despite his many admirable qualities, Harold is not without his quirks. For one thing, he can be a bit absent-minded at times. On more than one occasion, he has misplaced important documents or forgotten to submit reports on time. However, his forgetfulness is more than made up for by his enthusiasm and dedication.
Everything changed about six months ago. I came into the office, and everyone was in a tizzy. It isn’t like it was the first time the office was in this state. Harold usually got things in order rather quickly. However today, no Harold. He has never been late a day in thirty years. I tended to the disaster but never took my mind off what could have possibly happened to Harold. Then I was called into the Director’s office.
“Thank you for sorting out that dreadful mess.” said the Director
“It was nothing, Ma’am,” I replied.
“Harold?” She asked. I shrugged and walked out.
After stopping by Harold’s weekly for the next six months, I received a package at the Ministry. The package sat on my desk for another month before I remembered it. When I opened the package, there was a letter from Harold.
Dear Seamus,
I know this package has been sitting on your desk for about a month. I’m well. Venus and I have retired and living in my favorite place. Do you remember? Of course you do, you don’t forget anything. I miss you, ole chap. I haven’t had a decent conversation in months. Perhaps, you can down and keep Venus and me company.
~H
Well, that rascal, I thought. I had no idea that he and Venus had a thing. Why wouldn’t he tell me?
I guess there are a lot of things to consider when you’re thinking about “Pulling the Pen.”
What personal belongings do you hold most dear?
The consequences of rum and bad decisions. These consequences are both endearing and fester. Their existence is personal, and they belong to me. I bear the weight of them alone. I’m happy to do it.
Now that’s the end of it
So it goes …
When I first started therapy, my therapist began discussing the different courses of treatment. Then she mentioned we would be starting with CBT. Now, I always enjoy when experts talk to you using their jargon as if the entire world speaks this way. My therapist must have noticed my expression and immediately clarified things by stating, “Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.” I nodded, reassuring her I understood what she was referring to. However, in mind, a mini-rant formed.
“What? Is talking about mind control?”
“Hold on, I don’t quake like a duck for nobody!”
“Nah, ya’ll ain’t getting me with MK-Ultran, secret squirrel, CIA guinea pig … bullshit! Fuck that!”
As I stood up, preparing to walk out, she stared at me momentarily and asked, “MK-Ultra? or “Vulcan mind meld?” and pointed at the chair, inviting me to sit.
I assure you it’s nothing like that at all. Below I’ve provided some general information about the treatment.
Let’s take a look, shall we?
Mental health issues are a common occurrence in today’s world, and they can manifest in a variety of ways. Fortunately, there are effective methods to manage these conditions, one of which is cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT). CBT is a therapeutic approach that focuses on the connection between our thoughts, behaviors, and emotions and how changing them can positively impact our mental health.
CBT is a talk therapy that aims to help individuals identify and modify negative thought patterns and behaviors that contribute to mental health problems such as anxiety, depression, and PTSD. It is a short-term treatment option typically done in weekly sessions with a licensed therapist. During these sessions, the therapist works with the patient to identify negative thought patterns and behaviors and develop strategies to overcome them.
One of the fundamental principles of CBT is that our thoughts and beliefs have a powerful impact on our emotions and behaviors. This principle is based on the idea that our thoughts create our reality, and by changing our thoughts and beliefs, we can change how we feel and behave in various situations. CBT also emphasizes the development of practical coping strategies that patients can use to manage their symptoms outside of therapy sessions.
There are many benefits to using CBT to manage mental health issues. One of the main advantages is that it can be highly effective in helping patients overcome negative thought patterns and behaviors. Studies have shown that CBT can be just as effective as medication in treating conditions like anxiety and depression and more effective in the long term.
Another benefit of CBT is that it is a relatively short-term treatment option. While some other forms of therapy can take years to complete, most patients can complete a course of CBT in just a few months. This can make it a more practical option for people who are looking for a quick and effective way to manage their mental health.
CBT is also a versatile therapy that can be used to treat a variety of mental health conditions. In addition to anxiety, depression, and PTSD, CBT has been shown to be effective in treating conditions like obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), eating disorders, and substance abuse.
If you are struggling with mental health issues like anxiety, depression, or PTSD, CBT can effectively manage your symptoms and improve your overall well-being. By working with a licensed therapist, you can learn to identify and change negative thought patterns and behaviors, develop practical coping strategies, and achieve greater control over your emotions and behaviors.
It is important to note that CBT may not be the best option for everyone. Some people may benefit more from other types of therapy or a combination of treatments. However, CBT is definitely worth considering if you are looking for a proven and practical way to improve your mental health.
CBT is a powerful tool to help people overcome negative thought patterns and behaviors contributing to mental health issues. By working with a licensed therapist, patients can develop practical coping strategies and achieve greater control over their emotions and behaviors. If you are looking for a proven and practical way to improve your mental health, CBT may be the right choice for you.
Mental health issues are a common occurrence in today’s world, and they can manifest in a variety of ways. Fortunately, there are effective methods to manage these conditions, one of which is cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT). CBT is a therapeutic approach that focuses on the connection between our thoughts, behaviors, and emotions and how changing them can positively impact our mental health.
This is hard work. You have to face things you would rather forget but in the long run. I believe you be the better for it. I know I have been.
Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that can occur after going through or witnessing a traumatic event. PTSD can have a significant impact on a person’s daily life, relationships, and overall well-being. However, there are many effective treatments available for PTSD, that actually help. I know its scary and you probably have been through a few therapies treatments that didn’t help or made things worse. Please don’t give up. Recovery is a real possibility.
After, my diagnosis, I didn’t know what to do. I knew I didn’t want to stigmatized or labeled. So, I tried to hide it. Of course, that didn’t help, but the following are methods I used to assist in moving forward with the condition.
Psychotherapy, also known as talk therapy, is a widely used and effective treatment for PTSD. It involves speaking with a mental health professional about your thoughts, feelings, and experiences related to the traumatic event. There are several types of psychotherapy that are effective for treating PTSD, including cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR).
Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) is a type of therapy that helps individuals identify and change negative thought patterns and behaviors that are associated with PTSD. CBT focuses on helping the individual become more aware of the thoughts and feelings that contribute to their PTSD symptoms and teaches them how to challenge and change those thoughts and behaviors.
Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is another type of psychotherapy that uses eye movements to help individuals process traumatic memories and reduce the severity of PTSD symptoms. During EMDR therapy, the individual is asked to recall the traumatic event and then follow a therapist’s hand movements with their eyes. This process is believed to help the individual process and reframe the traumatic memory in a less distressing way.
Medications can also be helpful in treating PTSD symptoms. Antidepressants are commonly prescribed to individuals with PTSD. They can help reduce symptoms such as anxiety, depression, and insomnia. Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) and serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) are the most commonly prescribed antidepressants for PTSD.
Other medications such as anti-anxiety medications and sleep aids may also be prescribed to individuals with PTSD. These medications can help individuals manage symptoms such as anxiety, nightmares, and sleep disturbances.
It is important to note that while medications can be helpful in managing PTSD symptoms, they should always be used in conjunction with psychotherapy.
Complementary therapies, such as yoga, meditation, and acupuncture, can be valuable tools in managing and reducing symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). While psychotherapy and medication are considered the most effective treatments, these alternative therapies can provide additional benefits to individuals struggling with PTSD.
For instance, yoga has been shown to reduce stress and anxiety, which are common symptoms of PTSD. It can also improve sleep quality and increase feelings of relaxation and well-being. Meditation, on the other hand, can help individuals develop mindfulness, which can be helpful in managing intrusive thoughts and memories associated with traumatic experiences. Similarly, acupuncture has been found to reduce symptoms of anxiety and depression, as well as improve sleep quality.
While these complementary therapies may not be as effective as psychotherapy or medication, they can be used in conjunction with other treatments to help individuals better manage their symptoms. It is important to note that these therapies should only be used under the guidance of a qualified healthcare professional and should not be used as a substitute for evidence-based treatments.
PTSD can be a debilitating condition, but there are many effective treatments available. Seeking help from a mental health professional is the first step towards recovery. Psychotherapy, medications, and complementary therapies are all effective treatments that can help individuals manage their symptoms and improve their overall quality of life. If you or someone you know is struggling with PTSD, do not hesitate to seek help. Remember, recovery is possible.
POETRY – DAY 14 – NATIONAL POETRY MONTH
I know I turned out
to be a disappointment
I never intended to be
POETRY – DAY 9 NATIONAL POETRY MONTH
I wake up sweaty and sour
Out of breath, like I’ve been fighting
in my sleep
I have…
with myself
I wonder who won?
Memoirs of Madness 